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Fat Bones Report - Testimony

Posted by [email protected] on March 5, 2020 at 4:10 PM Comments comments (0)

Hello All,

I just wante to take a moment to share with you a testimony of God's hand at work in the life of one of the members of our Freedom Ministry Outreach Church.  He expressed to me in an email his concerns about the young men in his dorm constantly physically and verbally fighting each other.  The conflict in his dorm was so bad that he said it was unbearable to see these young men constantly hurting each other.  He asked my advice on how to reach them to speak to them about the fighting.  As I was writing him back letting him know that my husband would most likely be the better one to talk to about this situation I began to hear God's voice.  I expressed to him what I heard and saw in my mind from God.  I told him I saw a man sitting at a table alone in the middle of a dorm reading the Bible and praying.  Around him was conflict and other men fighting.  Then as I was writing this to him I saw in my mind the power of God fall from Heaven like water and fire mixed together.  It hit the man but didn't hurt him.  Then if was like it flowed through him and out into the room like a cloud.  As the cloud hit the men that were fighting they were so impacted by the presence of God that they stopped to see what had touched them.  I told him I think this is what God wants you to do.  I sent the email to him and a few days later I received one in response.  Sure enough he had tried what I felt God told me to share with him to do.  He said as he sat there in the middl of the room with his Bible quietly praying, feeling a little out of place, two young men walked up to him and said "do you mind if we use this table to play cards after you finish reading and spending time with God?"  He answered and said "yes of course you can." Then he said he asked them, "Hey, do you guys know God?"  One said "yes but I don't know anything about this Jesus."  He asked the man if he would like to know.  The man answered yes.  He said this opened a door for him to be able to share with these two young men the word of God and pray with them.  He also said one of the men was one of the main ones starting conflict in the dorm.  He told me at the end of the email that another one of the men on the dorn that was causing most of the conflicts was moved out of the dorm.  What a mighty display of God's power in response to this man's acts of obedience.  God is so faithful and all it takes is for us to open up and allow HIM to flow thru us.  Just wanted to share this mighty testimony.  What a blessing to see God working in these men's lives like this.  God is so good.  Amen. 

Your Current Location isn't as important as your Final Destination

Posted by [email protected] on January 10, 2020 at 12:35 AM Comments comments (0)

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My prayer as I begin this is … Search me Oh Lord and see if there be any unclean thing in me!!! Lord am I too focused on this world? Am I seeking you with my whole heart? Oh, Lord draw me to you. Know me, try me and see if there is any wickedness in me.



OK, you know me well enough to know what the phrase “put your seatbelts on” means… So here we go… Being right with God is the greatest need we have today. It is not about where we are or who we are with. It is not about our job or our school. It is not about where we live or work or even where we go to church. If our heart is not right with God, we are lost. It ought to be the business of every day to prepare for our last day. If our final destination is not Heaven, our present location doesn’t amount to a hill of beans. Brothers and sisters, stop focusing on the here and now and look to the hills from which cometh your help. Look to the eternal home of heaven with our loving King Jesus. That is all that matters. Do not look around you at this natural world for praise, applause, accolade or acceptance. This world is not our home, we are just passing through. The entrance into heaven is our final destination. It is not a spot in the choir, a seat on the front row on Sunday morning so everyone can see you walk in, nor a seat on the platform so everyone knows who you are. IT’S NOT ABOUT WHO YOU ARE, IT’S ABOUT WHO YOU BELONG TO. Who is your heart surrendered to? Is it the person that sleeps next to you? Is it surrendered to the voice of public opinion? Is it surrendered to the praise of the crowd as you sing or preach? Is it surrendered to fame and fortune? Is it surrendered to the lusts of your flesh? OR IS IT SURRENDERED TO THE KING OF kings, AND LORD OF lords? Who do you belong to? Do you belong to your flesh, this world, the opinion and approval of others? Or do you belong to the one that died for your sins so that you could be free through repentance and baptism in Jesus name and the infilling of the Holy Ghost? Who does your heart beat for? I ask this question because who your heart belongs to determines who you submit to and it also determines your final destination. When you buy an airplane ticket you don’t just walk up to the counter cold and say, “oh, I think I’ll go to Spain today.” … NO, you make a plan. You get your HEART SET on going. Then you count the cost and you plan for the trip. WHAT ARE WE DOING TODAY? UGH… Are we just flying by the seat of our pants and thinking that our final destination will just automatically be Heaven? Are we expecting to walk up to the pearly gates and say, “Oh, I think I’ll go to heaven today?” God forbid we have this mind set. God forbid we count Calvery with such low regard. Oh, my sweet Lord Jesus have mercy on us and please forgive us if this is our mindset. We must get our hearts set on Jesus and Heaven should be our desired final destination. The Bible says in 2 Peter 1:10-11 10Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall: 11For so an entrance shall be ministered unto you abundantly into the everlasting kingdom of our LORD and Saviour Jesus Christ. We must plan for it. Our final destination is a choice. It is not about where we are right now. Don’t allow your current physical situation or location become a crutch that you lean on all the way to hell. It’s about our heart being set on where we WANT, DESIRE, NEED TO GO… What is your final destination? HEAVEN.



Oh wait!!! I heard that in the spirit. “Well, I’m stuck in this situation and I can’t get out.” My answer to that lying devil’s voice from hell is, “you can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens you!” Make the choice to get up and walk away. Make the choice to do your best and get out. Make the choice to walk as a woman/man of God RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE so He can make you free where you are to obtain that final destination that your heart desires. OH wait, let me ask this question… Is Heaven your desired final destination? If not, may God have mercy on our souls and open our hearts and our spiritual eyes to see our destined end. Sorry, but not sorry! This is a matter of life and death. Heaven or hell. Our hearts should be set. Our minds made up that NOTHING is more important than being in the will of God. NOTHING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN HEAVEN BEING OUR FINAL DESTINATION. ETERNITY WITH OUR LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST SHOULD BE OUR HEART’S DESIRE. He loves us. He died for us. He sacrificed all so we could spend eternity with Him. You see, we have two worlds fighting over our soul. Heaven and hell. Jesus died for your soul and for you to achieve the goal of Heaven because he loves you more than himself. He paid the price so that we may be free. If I buy you a new car but you never come get the keys because you are too busy, too lazy, too tired, too good or too important to walk the path to my house and pick it up, it’s still your car you just never took possession of it. You never fought your flesh or pride to walk over and get the keys and get in and possess the car. Jesus died to pay the price for your eternal entry into heaven and an eternal relationship with Him. If you never fight your flesh to get up and follow Acts 2:38 and repent, be baptized in Jesus name and receive the free gift of the Holy Ghost we will never reach the final destination of Heaven that he has died for us to have. We must strive to fight to obtain the goal of a relationship with Jesus and an eternity in heaven. As I said, two worlds are fighting over your soul. Jesus is fighting because he loves you. hell has done nothing to obtain your soul. made no sacrifice for your soul and has no legal right to your soul nor your life unless you give the devil authority through your acts of sin. Hell, the devil nor any demon he sends after you has any love for you, he only wants your soul to hurt Jesus and, with his goal to hurt Jesus, he uses us as pawns. You have the power to stop him. You and you alone can determine your destination. The CHOICE is yours. God will not usurp your human will. He came in the form of the man Jesus Christ and died on the cross, so you would have a free choice of heaven. He has paid the cost for our sins. He paved the way for our final destination… Heaven! NOW, the choice is ours to follow that path and reach the final destination of Heaven or to walk in our flesh and die the eternal death of hell. Again, it’s not about our present location. It doesn’t matter where you go to Heaven from. Be it a mansion on the highest hill no earth, a little log cabin in the mountains of West Virginia, a high-rise office where you are CEO or a jail or prison cell. It doesn’t matter your physical situation or location… What matters is your final destination of Heaven or hell. It’s a matter of your heart!!! It’s time to submit to our Lord Jesus with our whole hearts. We can’t be wrong with God and expect to embrace a scripture and ideal and have God be right with us. It is a relationship!!! Your heart getting in touch with HIS heart. It’s time to pray that powerful but small prayer found in Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart: Try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. So now, My Brothers and Sister… I ask you the very important questions of this… Where are you standing at the counter planning a trip to today? Who do you belong to? What is your final destination? Heaven or hell? Make your election sure Brothers and Sisters… Heaven is our goal. Look past your present situation or location. Keep in mind your current location doesn’t determine your final destination. I bless you in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.



Just a little food for thought… I pray that this message has helped you as much as it helped me.



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Reaching the Lost...

Posted by [email protected] on November 11, 2019 at 5:30 PM Comments comments (22)


Freedom Ministry Outreach Church - subsidiary of Sister Soldier Ministries

Published by Shawna Sister-soldier Sheffield · November 8 at 6:39 AM ·

Good morning everyone. I woke up this morning the first thing on my mind was have I ever burnt my finger I burnt myself. And after saying good morning Lord I answered him yes I have. I Heard in the back of my mind do you remember how it felt. I said yes it stings like your whole skin is on fire in that area not just on the surface but underneath all of your senses in that area are stinging. Then all of a sudden I had a picture in my mind of people I love in the Lake of Fire screaming people that care for people I work with people on the freedom Ministry just screaming standing in a lake of fire. I woke straight up out of my sleep. I sat Up on the edge of my bed and begin to pray "God have mercy don't let my children and my grandchildren and my husband or my self anyone I love go to hell"... all of a sudden there was such an urgency in my spirit for the people around me my coworkers people at the grocery store the people in my church how many understand that urgency what's the question burning in my mind. How many really realize that hell is a reality? Do our kids realize as they're caught up in this world in the things of it that hell is reality? do our parents who are still living realize that hell is a reality Do I realize hell is a reality? It's like God just shook me to my core and said where is your voice? Why are you sleeping in such a late hour? Who have you asked? Who have you asked are they going to Hell or Heaven lately? I began to repent and pray asking God to forgive me for not doing enough as the urgency to reach the Lost begin to grow in my spirit even deeper than it already was. I asked God what more can I do. I hear it in my mind even now as I write this, be that voice crying in the wilderness. Allow your voice to be like John's and let it be heard everywhere. Let that urgency burn in your soul to reach the Lost so that their souls don't burn for an eternity. Make Heaven a priority in your mind and in your heart and let that Pour out of you to others like rivers of Living Water. The Bible says in these last days at the hearts of men will wax cold. Ask God to burn a fire of the Holy Ghost in your heart let it burn for the Lost. Let it burn for your lost loved ones, your loss co-workers. Let that fire of the Holy Ghost burns for the ones that you see in your mind right now that are on their way to a Devils hell that will burn in a lake of fire. Imagine that time you burned your finger, your hand or your arm. Remember how it felt then, imagine your loved one burning from head to toe and the pain that they would feel in hell. Reality is what it is and hell is a very real reality that we must reach to save souls from. It's time to wake up. It's time to be that voice crying in the wilderness. Ask God two little love for the Lost burning your soul. better that it burn in your souls and their souls burn in hell. Ask God to create a hunger and a thirst in your soul for the things of Heaven and to be able to reach the Lost. I pray that God will awaken us and Shake us to the reality of how close we are to the coming of the Lord Jesus Christ. I asked for his mercy and his grace for us all. but as for me and my house as we walk into this day I feel that fire burning in me To the point of tears at the thought of anyone being lost. I pray that each of you have a good day and I pray that each of you walking to this day with the fire of the Holy Ghost burning in your soul I know this message is not my normal message this is what I woke up to this morning I pray that it awakens you awakens your soul and melts your Stony heart. I love you all with the love of Christ. I pray that each of you find your place with God, repent be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of your sins and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost... that's what the word say. It also says lest ye be born again of the water in the spirit you shall not enter into the kingdom of God. To me that's urgent. let it become urgent to you as well. In the name of Jesus awaken. Let your voice be heard for the kingdom of God.


Posted by [email protected] on October 22, 2019 at 8:35 PM Comments comments (19)

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Star·va·tion: suffering or death caused by hunger.

In this world we get hungry in our natural body. There is a difference in being hungry and starving. When you are hungry you can wait a while and you can make it until Lunch time, or you can wait until you get home from work to eat. You will not die before you eat if you are just hungry, but when you are starving you body has begun to shut down. Your body begins to demand action take place to bring relief to the starvation. Your body takes over your every thought with the extreme need for food or water. What ever you are starving for. People starve for more than just food or drink. Children are known to show out and even adults are known to show out when they are "starved for attention". They long for attention and will do whatever it takes to get it. Even if it leads to a bad result. There are many things that we hunger for or starve for. It is a deep need in the natural that takes over our thoughts and actions with a driving need.

A few nights ago I was driving for Uber and I had two of the Gator players in the car with that were returning from an out of town game. They were both watching interviews that took place after the game on their phones while I drove. The one in the front seat was having small talk with me then he stopped talking and was listening to a video. It was an interview of one of the players. In the interview the player was talking and he said, "it's not about the game to me. It about what you hunger for, and man I am starving for this." As I processed what he said I said out loud to the young men in the car, "Did he just say I'm starving for this?" One of them young men said yes. My whole brain exploded with revelation and I felt the Holy Ghost wash over me as I drove. I said, "wow... Can you imagine if we felt that was about the spiritual things of God?" Before I knew it I was hearing God's voice roll in the back of my mind and I was saying what I was hearing with no regard to the young men's reaction. Then I stopped. I realized they were both staring at me. I said, "oh, I'm sorry. My brain just exploded with God's voice." The young man in the front seat said, "no that is ok. We are believers." I was so blown away by God's voice in that moment. I was starving for his next work and lost track of who was in the car, the fact that I was at work, that I was driving. I stopped at the destination for the young men and realized that God had just given me a sermon. As they exited my car and we said our goodnights I had to pull to the side and capture what God was saying. I had this urgency in my soul to capture every word. Every thing stopped around me as I was drawn into the view of the Holy Ghost and I felt a hunger for His Words flowing through my mind begin and quickly grow stronger. Then I heard him say "Starvation". "What are you starving for?" In the natural we starve for food, water, attention, affection, Love, fame, power, money, but it should be our spirit man that is starving for the things of God. How many this day and age starve for the presence of God? How many actually long for and have that overwhelming desire for the presence of the Holy ghost, and the thing of Heaven? At times our Spirit man longs for and draws us into the presence of God but we shut it down because of where we are or what is going on around us and who we are with. We don't want to offend anyone. But just like in the car, I was starving for the word that was flowing through my mind from the voice of God. I lost track of who was in the car. The Holy Ghost took over and the words were coming out of my mouth before I realized it. These two young men were believers and one said before exiting the car that he needed to hear that. How many times do we suppress the Spirit of God when He starts flowing? We stop that interaction with the Holy Ghost because we get so caught up in the natural. However, this is the time when we should let His spirit flow through us. Just like the young men int eh car, you never know who you might reach or who might need to hear what he is giving you to say. It's time for us to get hungry for the things of God. It is time for us to go even beyond that to starving for the things of God. We must take our focus off the things of this world and focus on the Things of God. The things of this world are temporal. The bible says in 2 Corinthians 4:18 While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. The things of this world are temporary. We must hunger for the eternal. The Bible says in Matthew 5:6 Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. Do you want to be filled? Do you want the things of God? Do you want the flow of the Holy Ghost in your life? It is time for us to turn our focus from this world to the things of God. So my question to you is this, "What are you starving for?"

Just food for thought...

Blessings from the desk of:

The ~*Sister Soldier*~

July Newsletter

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Freedom Outreach Ministry...

Posted by [email protected] on September 12, 2019 at 1:00 PM Comments comments (319)

Hello All. 

I just wanted to share with you how the Lord is working in my life at this point.  I have been blessed over the past 8 years to walk in the mission field of a prison / jail ministry that God opened up for me.  Over the years I have written to many people in jail but over the past 8 months God has truly stepped into this ministry and revival has broken out.  With the help of my Husband Marvin, Our Daughter Mashayla and Sister Robin We are currently writing to 95 men and women who are incarcerated at this time.    In this number of people God has blessed me to meet and become a part of men and women's lives that range from new babes in Christ to seasoned ministers and warriors in Christ.  I am very blessed to be walking in this calling on my life that God started after speaking the scripture Hebrews 13:3 into my spirit.  I am so humbled at the amazing journey that God has allowed me to be on with these wonderful individuals that at one point found themselves in a place in life where they did the wrong thing or made wrong choices that caused them to be incarcerated but now through His grace and mercy God has brought them to a place of surrender unto Him where they are now growing and leading others to the Lord.  I started this journey with the hopes of helping others and have learned over the months that God has used these wonderful individuals I have met to help and encourage me just as much as I have helped and encouraged them. 

In this ministry we send out a monthly Newsletter that features a section called "Featured Writer of the Month".  This section allows the members of our Freedom group to submit writing, sermons, poems, and articles they want to share.  It is a wonderful way to encourage them as well as build confidence as a writer or just in expressing themselves.  It is one of my favoriate sections of the Newsletter. If you wish to receive a copy feel free to eail us or leave a comment with your email address and I will contact you to get mailing information to send out a copy of the Newsletter to you. 

I will be sharing more on Information about the Freedom Outreach Ministry as the months go on.  Please stay turned. :) As the months go on we will be sharing more on this subject and others.  God bless and keep you all until we speak again.

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~*Sister Soldier*~

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Posted by [email protected] on September 12, 2019 at 1:00 PM Comments comments (0)

“Capital “I” or a small “i” ?”

In proper grammar when we write a sentence the “I” is capitalized as to indicate a proper noun. It is referring to one’s self in the first person. Such as in the sentence, “I can go outside and run 10 miles”… HAHA not really, I might not make it a block… LOL. BUT you get my meaning. The Bible says I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me… Let’s look at this scripture for a moment. The “I” is capitalized because it refers to me in the first person as a proper noun. But let’s look at the word Christ. In the middle of Christ is a small “i” … and in this portion of the sentence it is referring to Jesus giving us strength to do all things. I alone can do nothing but when I put myself in the middle of Jesus Christ and allow Him to give me the strength HE has for me “I” become a small “i” and gains power through the strength of Jesus to do ALL things… My Bishop told me once… If you want to get big… get little. I was confused (not hard to do…LOL) so I asked him to elaborate. He said If you want to go higher in the kingdom of God then you must decrease so that HE can increase in your life. That made perfect sense to me. The more of Christ I have in my life the less of me {ME = “I”, Flesh, self-will, pride (notice the “i” in the middle of pride?), arrogance, ungodliness} there is in my life and My will becomes HIS will fulfilling the word that says Lord let “THY WILL be done in earth as it is in heaven” in Matthew 6:10. We must learn to allow HIS WILL to be done. (notice the “i” in the middle or His Will?) When we allow ourselves to become smaller than His presence in our lives and crucify this flesh we live in, and Kill Pride and all that comes with it, then we can truly walk in His will. OH Wait! I hear in the back of my mind the words, “well you don’t know what I have been through.” “What can I do from in here?” I say to that devil who is speaking that fowl deceptive language of bondage into the atmosphere. “shut up!” In the name of Jesus, I bind you and render you silent! Now I say to you, Do not allow your present circumstances nor your past to dictate your destiny. You can do ALL things through Christ Jesus who strengthens you. That scripture didn’t say you can do all things when you got it all together. Nor did it say you can do all thing once you are free from where you are presently at. Because freedom is a state of mind. No matter the captivity or state your body is in you can be free in your mind. It’s a matter of the heart. Back to the scripture that says… You can do ALL things. ALL mean ALL! And how can you do it? Through Christ Jesus who strengthens you. So, it is not our works that help us do it… It is our Lord and savior Jesus Christ who give us the strength to do what HE calls us to do… WE can do ALL things through HIM… Now comes the choice. Because to have more of HIM we must decrease and have less of us. We must put aside the Capital “I” and become the small “i” in the middle of Christ Jesus. But like I said, “now comes the choice.” It is a matter of the heart. God is a gentleman and will not force us to do anything. He wants us to love Him freely just as He loved us as He went to Calvary for us before we were even formed in our mother’s womb. Before our fathers and mothers even knew each other, He died for us. So now I ask you… will you die out to this flesh… will you kill the Capital “I”? Will you allow yourself to be enveloped in Christ? Will you choose to be like Paul who said, “I die daily.” As for me I am saying today, “less of me Lord… More of you.” Just a little food for thought. Remember you are what you eat so make sure to feed yourself spiritual food from the Bread of Life. Our Lord and Savior has laid a table before you. It’s up to you what you eat. I love you my brothers and sisters. Be strong in the Lord today for HE alone is our source of Strength.

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~*Sister Soldier*~

Revelation ... Who are you giving your strength to?

Posted by [email protected] on March 10, 2015 at 10:15 AM Comments comments (0)

David only killed one giant, but more giants fell because he trained giant killers… we should be sharing our strength and our wisdom with the next generation and equipping them for the battle and setting their feet right on a spiritual path. I want my children to be giant killers. I want my children and grandchildren and youth of our church to be giant killers… Moses gave his strength to Aaron. Who are you pouring your spiritual strength into? What giant killers are you sharing your knowledge with????? Who are you helping grow in the kingdom of God. Don’t bury your talent. Share it and let it grow. Get over your anger and bitterness and let God use you!!!!!!!!!! It is time to pass on what God has given us. Stop holding back and GIVE GOD ALL YOU HAVE!!!!!!!!!!


Are you pouring your energy into this world? Or are you pouring your energy into the work of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ?  What are you feeding to your soul today?  Be Kingdom Minded!!!

New Book Release - Revelations of Warfare

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I am honored to announce the upcoming release of the new book that is currently in publication.  Please pre order if you wish to get a copy.  Book located on the Sister Soldier Products page of this site. 

Heart Attack...

Posted by [email protected] on April 17, 2014 at 10:45 AM Comments comments (17)

Heart attack is defined as a sudden, painful & dangerous condition in which your heart stops working as it was designed to work.

When a person has a heart attack it affects the whole body. When we as believers are wounded & we build walls to stop our heart from being hurt we block with those walls the part of our heart that the anointing of God flows out of us to others. Therefore our heart (spiritually) is not working as it was designed to work. This is a

Spiritual Heart Attack.

Let’s look at what the word says about a spiritual heart attack:

Psalm 55:3-14

3 Because of the voice of the enemy, because of the oppression of the wicked: for they cast iniquity upon me, and in wrath they hate me.

4 My heart is sore pained within me: and the terrors of death are fallen upon me.

5 Fearfulness and trembling are come upon me, and horror hath overwhelmed me.

Then in vs. 13 it says:

13 But it was thou, a man mine equal, my guide, and mine acquaintance.

14 We took sweet counsel together, and walked unto the house of God in company.


~The enemy seldom uses people that we are not close to, to harm us. He uses our loved ones, our most trusted & adored because with them our guard is down & we have a trust with them./ Therefore we don’t build walls. Our spouses, our children, our families, our prayer partners, our sisters & brother (both natural and spiritual). We trust & love them but at times the attack on us comes through the ones closest to us! The enemy uses our love for them against us! We end up asking things like “how could someone that loves me betray me & hurt me so badly?” & “how could I have been so stupid & so blind not to realize?” Then the self-condemnation comes in (which by the way is NOT of God!!) And we blame ourselves. At this point we lose trust & shut our hearts down & build our walls & vow to NEVER love or trust anyone again! And when we do this our hearts that were designed to love are no longer allowed to work to the fullest capacity that they were designed! At that point we are having a SPIRITUAL HEART ATTACK.


Let’s look a little deeper:


~When we have a physical heart attack we develop fears of a repeat attack. We sometimes don’t realize the depths of these fears but our whole life changes after a heart attack. We become fearful at every pain. Every shortness of breath, we have flash backs! Therefore we watch what we eat & we move slower as to not strain our heart, when in reality … after a resting & healing period … the only way to make the heart muscle stronger again is to work out! Same thing happens in the spiritual! BUT in spite of the fear of being hurt again we must forgive & learn to trust God & love again so HE can flow through us again & He can use us in the proper manner that HE created us to be used! We must heal & allow God to fix us because the condition of our heart even affects our salvation.

Jesus said in Luke 21:26

26 Men's hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the earth: for the powers of heaven shall be shaken.

And in Luke 21:34 (Jesus speaking)

34 And take heed to yourselves, lest at any time your hearts be overcharged with surfeiting, and drunkenness, and cares of this life, and so that day come upon you unawares.

~We must take heed, pay attention to who & what we allow in our lives for the enemy comes disguised as an angel of light

2 Corinthians 11:14

14 And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light.

~Make yourself aware of your surroundings!

Matthew 10:16

16 Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of

wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves.


~Jesus wants us to be able to handle the attacks that come & yet still be gentle enough to open our hearts & love others without fear so our hearts are open to allow HIS love & HIS anointing to flow through us to others! He wants us to live in peace not in fear.

Jesus said in John 14:27:

John 14:27

27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

He also said in John 14:1:

John 14:1

14 Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.


~We must put aside our fears & walk boldly in God’s will for our lives. Love without fear!

2 Tim 1:7 says:

7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.


~We must protect our hearts!


Prov 4:23 says:

Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it flows the matters of life.


~We must guard against iniquities of this world!

Matt 24:12

And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

~We can’t allow our love to wax cold. If we do then it will not flow through our hearts to others as our hearts were designed to have it flow to others. Love is a gift to us & God has called us with two great commandments…

Matthew 22:37-40

37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.

38 This is the first and great commandment.

39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself.

40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.


~God has commanded us to love! We are not only to love him, but each other as well. If we are having a heart attack we can’t love the way we are designed & commanded to! If we have our walls up around our heart we are blocking the love of God! As well as our love from flowing to others as God has commanded.


~So now, we must examine our own selves! I pray, search me Oh Lord to see if there be any unclean thing in me. But we must also ask ourselves the hard questions:

1. Do you have walls up that are blocking your love & God’s love to flow through you to others?

2. Do you have un-forgiveness in your heart?

“I did & didn’t even realize it until God revealed it to me. I truly thought I had forgiven.”

3. Ask yourself, is my heart

working as God designed it to work or am I having a heart attack?


~If you find that you are having a heart attack, go the nest step & ask God to help you heal & create in you a clean heart & renew in you a right spirit. Allow HIM to use you again!


The healing process is easy:

1. Identify the area of hurt.

2. Forgive the one that hurt you. Truly forgive.

3. Forgive yourself for feeling what you feel.

4. Ask God to forgive the ones that hurt you & don’t hold this to their charge.

5. Ask God to forgive you for your part in it.

6. Begin to walk & love again.




~I pray this helps you. It comes from a healed heart. For I once had a spiritual heart attack & God healed me… In HIS mercy & grace HE healed ME!!


He can heal you too…